14 weeks!

Wow! A week has gone by already?? Things sure are moving along this time around.

At 14 weeks I am feeling a lot better. My nausea is pretty much gone. While I still get headaches - I think it's from being tired still. I need to see my eye doctor and will be doing that in June. My food aversions are slim to none - well except for peas. I CANNOT stand those green little suckers right now. Not a whole lot of cravings either. I still need my chocolate milk in the morning... sometimes I crave corn pops but other than that not a whole lot. Correction! Mushroom soup! I want it!!

I weighed myself on Sunday and I am still at 158 lbs which is only a gain of 3 lbs since I found out I was pregnant. I can't even remember how much I gained with James at this point - but it was more than that!

The new bed is treating me very well. I can get to sleep and STAY asleep. HEAVEN!! Although I am still having troubles with heartburn. It only seems to make an appearance once I'm ready for bed - so a friend said to try baking soda and water - works great!

I now know that I am defiantly feeling little kicks in there. It's crazy how I forgot the little things about being pregnant. I cannot wait for Chris and James to be able to feel baby kick. James always say "HI baby" every morning and gives my belly a kiss. It seriously brings a tear to my eye.

Speaking of tears - I cannot stop crying. Chris thinks it's hilarious. I on the other hand, don't like it. Sure everyone needs a good cry now and then but this - this is crazy! I don't remember being this emotional with James.

Round Ligament pain! HOLY JEBUS! I never really experienced this with James but now at 14 weeks it comes and goes and man - is.it.PAINFUL!! 

I have my next midwife appointment May 14th. I am itching to hear bubs heartbeat again. I have to remind myself to ask what the rate was. My Aunt has this uncanny way of knowing just by the heartrate what the baby is. ie: Boy/Girl - I don't think she's been wrong...ever. We do find out in 45 days...I am excited yet also kinda of like - do I really want to know?? With James we let it be a surprise...and a surprise he was!

Well on to another week! We are going to visit my parents on Saturday. Hoping to come back on Tuesday...then we are heading out again on the Friday as my cousin is getting married.... oh boy... I'm going to be a mess!!

Much love
xoxo

 

Wordless Wednesday - slightly early

Much love
xoxo

Weekend Treasures

It's Spring clean up in our town - which means houses have some nasty old stuff that no one really wants!

I must say that some houses look like they have been hoarding junk JUST for this one day of junk pick up. But I have changed my opinion about Spring clean up - there are some treasures to be found.

For instance - James has a new trike that we found. It doesn't have a seat on it but his Papa said he would make something for him. He had such a great time riding up and down the driveway at my in-laws. He would pull himself all the way up to the top and then ride down with no feet yelling "WEEEE!"

My mother in law went for a walk with James and when she returned she let us know that there was a play kitchen just up the street that seemed to be in good condition. I asked Chris to run up in the car to grab it. Even if I didn't like it we could let it be on the side of the road and someone else could come and get it.

I was SO pleased when he brought it home. It was in great condition - there was a door that needed to be taken off and some stickers missing but other than that all it needed was a good hose down and scrub!

Here is it! I'm going to add a piece of cardboard and fabric to the ironing board - and will also add some stickers to make it more kitchen like. James was super excited to see his new kitchen. He loves playing with the one that is at play group - and the best part is - it was FREE!!

Now I get to go out and buy some play food - dishes and other fun stuff! Watch out work! Mama's on a mission!

Hope you all had a great weekend!

Much love
xoxo
  

13 weeks - second trimester already??

13 weeks already??!! I cannot believe how fast this is going! So does this mean I'm in my second Trimester?? Holy Crap!!

The nausea is slowly going away. There are times in the evening where I feel so sick but that's only after my vitamin. A new symptom is heartburn. OH lordy - it's terrible. I have to watch what I eat before bed or else i am up all freaking night. This includes water!!

I can't remember if I posted this but FINALLY got a new bed!! I slept like a baby the fist night and Chris did not want to get out of bed for school. Now we need to get James a new one. L:ittle bugger has jumped so much that his is cracking and NOISY!!

Anyways - I *think* I've felt some kicks here and there but i cannot be sure. It's almost like a foot is pushing on the inside of my belly. But it could be gas...hehe

There isn't a whole lot to report - I'm weighing in at 158lbs - possibly more now so I will update this on Sunday. I haven't had a lot of cravings - Iced Tea is something I want all the time but I have to refrain due to sugar content and caffeine. Other than that cravings come and go. My headaches are still here and they HURT! I have an appointment in June as my eye doctor is fully booked so I am hoping everything is ok by then - if not hopefully they can tell me why I keep getting these.

I will update this as the week progresses!

Much love
xoxo

Wondering what life will bring....

A lot could change for our little family in the next few months - and I'm scared to bits!

Chris is finishing school - actually he's done next week and after passing his exam he will be a fully ticketed, red seal tradesman. I'm so proud of him. Here's the thing - there's no work for him to go back to.

He's been off work for four months! Two of which he's been in school but still - he contacted his employer and they said that there wasn't anything for him to come back to. So, he's looking for another company. Again, there isn't much of anything down here on the coast.

There's a few options we've been discussing - waiting it out and hoping that something comes up here, close to home or camp work. Ugh! Just the thought of it  makes me want to cry. There is TONS of work up north and at the Alberta border.

He would most likely work 3 weeks on and then have a week at home with us. The longest I've been away from Chris since we moved in together 4 years ago has been 5 days - and this was WAAYY before James was here. But the thing is the money would be crazy good, and it's not like he has to do this forever..right??

Nothing is set in stone right now but I'm thinking he will probably give er a go. See how he likes it (I mean c'mon how much fun would that be?? Yikes!) I would miss him So much - Oh my heart hurts just thinking about it but I know right now if it's what we have to do then we have to do it. We have to survive somehow - and me working 2 days a week at 10.00 an hour isn't going to pay our rent!

There are some upsides to this - I wouldn't have to go to work for those 2 measly days a week - meaning J would have all my attention all day long and I wouldn't be cutting our special days short cause mama has to get ready. I think it would be good for us - Absence makes the heart grow fonder - is that the cliché saying??

Like I said nothing is set in stone right now - I'm hoping something is available soon for him. Everything is so up in the air right now and I hate uncertainty - What will be will be and I know we make it.

Much love
xoxo
  

Weekend Update

Well, I have to say we had a pretty great weekend.

On Friday C went to a friends house to watch the Hockey game - J went to bed early as he really needed to! So I got to watch some super sappy chick flicks and bawled like a little baby. I really needed a good cry. I mean it didn't help the headache BUT it was so worth it!

I worked my last Saturday shift this past weekend! WOOHOO!! I've cut my hours at work from 16 a week to 8. I'm just not up to it and C thinks it's a good idea considering my blood pressure is still up. Plus I'm still so damn tired! So after work on Saturday we decided to go out for dinner. C made a joke saying because I didn't want White Spot I must be having a girl. lol So we went for Sushi at a local place close to home.

J has never had Sushi so this was a first for him. (Don't worry I didn't eat any raw fish - YUK!) I was starving so we started off with a bowl of Miso Soup and some rice. J LOVED the soup and he was even loving the rice. Then we ordered a bunch of food. A couple California Rolls, a BC Roll, a Dynamite Roll and some Appetizer Tempura (Mmm my and J's fav!) - I only eat the Cali rolls as I'm not big on other seafood. For J we got him the Chicken Teriyaki which he also loved!

When we got home it was time for J's bath. He was ready for bed soon after that. So then I just curled up on the couch and rested. Interview with the Vampire was on but I only got through the first 30 minutes before I fell asleep. Then I had to move my sleepy bum to our crappy crappy bed - then it took FOREVER to get back to sleep. I cannot wait for Tuesday - our new bed arrives!

As for today - well J let us sleep in - then we headed to Wal Mart to get s few things for the new bed - and went food shopping. We came home, had lunch and then played outside for a while. We had perogies for dinner then went to Cold Stone for ice cream. J wanted to play some more so he played with Daddy outside with his new "Buzz" ball.


I'm sad to see the weekend come to an end - BUT I cannot wait to be able to spend the WHOLE weekend with my boy next weekend. We need to plan on something fun!!

Much love
xoxo

Resting

I just had to share this photo. I took it with my phone almost 3 years ago. The location is Twin Lakes in the Okanagan. This is the final resting place of my Dad. This is what he looks out to. Isn't it just beautiful??

Much love
xoxo

Baby Update

Ahh.. Week 12. Hello! So nice to see you!

So what does week 12 bring me: Headaches, panic attacks, more nausea and sleepless nights.

Let's start with the headaches - I personally think it's due to my lack of wearing glasses. YES I am suppose to wear them ALL the time but I don't - why? Cause they give me headaches. I need to go in and see my specialist. I try to keep my water intake up but regardless how much I drink, I still get headaches.

Panic Attacks: UGH! I hate these! I had them with J too. I get so worked up about everything that I go into a panic and can't breath! This is why I was put off work with J at 6 months. Well it was a combo of stress, anxiety and depression. I'm really hoping to keep my spirits up this time, but if my blood pressure stays up that's it's. No more worky for this mama.

Nausea: I would VERY much like this symptom to hit the road!

NO SLEEP!: Ok well I do get some sleep but it takes forever!! C and I have a crappy old bed that was given to us by my nana and papa...and our bed before that was from his grandparents.. so we came up with a solution - We bought a NEW bed. WOOHOO. Here's hoping for better nights sleep.. the ONLY issue is it doesn't come till next week so I have to endure the S@!$ bed for another week!

My belly has clearly popped and I can no longer hide it! C and I have started to guess what it is: We both say girl... so we will be finding out on June 8th!!

I had my midwife appointment yesterday - It was a fun one! NOT - I hate paps.. they are just- BLEH! But the midwife (Debbie - whom I LOVE!! was super nice about it) We talked about whats been going on and she gave me some comfort. I just have to say that I am so thankful that I went with a midwife this time around. I feel like I matter.. if that makes any sense. I also got to hear the heartbeat! At first I didn't hear it. I could only hear my own then Debbie found bub and WOW - I forgot what that sounded like. I was in awe! To hear my own heartbeat and then babes was just amazing.

So that's what's been up so far. C is finished school in a couple of weeks and I cut my hours of work down. We have a wedding coming up at the beginning of May and then we will be going on our first Vacation to Osoyoos!! I am SO looking forward to that!!

Much love
xoxo

Wordless Wednesday - Week 12

 

Ta Da! 

Weeks: 12 (3 months) 

Weight Gain: 3 lbs - not to bad!

Symptoms: Nausea, food aversions, headaches, panic attacks. (I'll go into detail in another post)

I had a midwife appointment yesterday and got to hear that sweet 'swoosh swoosh' sound of our bubs heartbeat. Needless to say, I left that appointment with a HUGE smile on my face! 

Happy Hump Day
much love
xoxo

Easter Weekend

I feel so bad! I barely took any pictures of our weekend! But I did get some of J's first Easter egg hunt!

He had so much fun running around the house looking for his goodies.

My MIL made a FABULOUS dinner for all of us. Turkey, ham, and a WHACK load of side dishes. Plus my Grandma made Flapper Pie. YUM YUM! We told more family friends that we are expecting our second babe and of course everyone was very happy for us. Ahh I still cannot believe it! Anyways - enjoy the pictures!

First Belly Picture!

 

Yay!! Belly pics! I'm 10 weeks 5 days here (Now 11w 1d) But I thought I would start with this one. I feel like I look big already! But I know most of it is bloat, so I'm ok with that.

My pre pregnancy weight was 155lbs. I am now at 157lbs I believe - I will weigh myself over the weekend BEFORE Easter dinner! 

UPDATE: Ok current weight is 158lbs - so I'm up 3 lbs since finding out. Not to shabby!!

Have a great weekend!

Much love

xoxo

SURPRISE!!!

After our devastating loss in December, C and I decided to wait one full cycle before we started to try again. Well, kind of. During the month after we didn't use any type of protection and just went for it.

Aunt Flo showed her ugly face, but I was ok with that. At least I was getting back on track.

So after she left - I bought some OPK's. I thought maybe this would help us as my cycles were whack. I was pretty regular ie: 28-29 day cycles. After the miscarriage it took 32 days for my cycle to come. So not too far off, but enough for me to want to track it.

I never got a positive OPK in February. I was sooo bummed. I started testing on CD 7 nada - again on CD9 - nada. So I waited a couple more day and still no positive. C and I decided to go at it blind. Screw the tests - let's just do what we need to do.

I didn't know when I had ovulated so I couldn't judge the days we should be BDing. Plus we were both sick BLEH!

I tested on the 16th and it was negative so I told myself not to get upset if my HPT came back negative the next day.

Well....

Two months to the day after we lost our wee babe.... here it is!!!

POSITIVE!!

Yes, that's right! POSITIVE! I could not believe my eyes when I looked at my test. It was a very faint line (It didn't even show up on my camera photo) But I knew it was indeed 100% positive. I decided to take one more on Sunday just so I could get a picture with a more solid pink line.

We are beyond thrilled - yet at the same time nervous as hell. This time around I don't feel so apprehensive toward the pregnancy. Last time I just had a bad feeling. This time I feel wonderful! I know what ever happens will happen but I'm trying to be super positive.

So off my LMP - I am due around October 24th - 30th. I know EDD are just that an estimation.

Here's hoping for a Healthy and Happy 9 Months!!

Week 6:

So at this point in my last pregnancy I had no morning sickness. Nothing at all that would have made me think I was pregnant. Well the absence of my period was a pretty good indicator BUT this time around I am so damn nauseous. It comes and goes in waves but it is definitely present throughout the day.

Headaches are another symptom that has crept up. It's not an all day thing but they come around late afternoon and last till I go to bed. I haven't been taking anything for them as once I get some rest I am fine. I've been trying to up my water intake and am succeeding. With J I was nauseous all the time. No puking but just constantly nauseous. I had sore boobies and was irritable. WATCH OUT!

Food aversions: Cooking bacon. OMC I wanna hurl when I can smell my breaky cooking. Bacon is something I crave. Like really bad so while I am cooking it I have to hold my breath. It's terrible.

What am I craving: Grapefruit, orange juice - anything citriusy. Bacon and carbs.

With J, all I wanted was cheese and rootbeer. No lie. OH and tuna cakes. Strange I know.. hmm Tuna cakes sounds pretty damn good right now.

I am so emotional. I cry all the time. I could be listening to a song and that's that - I'm in tears. We were watching the Bodyguard (Like the last 15 minutes) and I was balling! I couldn't control myself. I am still nervous about passing the 7 week mark. I just want to progress normally and have no complications. I go in to see my midwife on the 20th of March. I will have a dating ultrasound as I am not 100% how far along I am no when I am due. So that will put my mind at ease to see our little ones heartbeat.

Week 7:

So this week the nausea is here all the freaking time. I can't shake it! The good news is the headaches have subsided which thank god - cause they were annoying! I'm still really tired and emotional but that's a given right?? No sore/tender nips but at times - if J gets me in the right spot they do hurt.

I've been having crazy vivid dreams still. Some are sexual, some are happy and some are down right scary. My mind is racing a mile a minute while sleeping and I don't know where these dreams are coming from.

Food Aversion's: peas - We had pasta and peas one night and the little green peas just turned my stomach! Bleh!
Cravings: Milk - lots of milk! Chocolate milk to be exact.

I've gained 3 lbs since I found out we were pregnant again. To be honest I don't care how much weight I gain. I mean within reason right?? I gained 50lbs with J - but I was sickly underweight when we found out. (118lbs at 5'9..not good for me)

Week 8:

Yay! 2 months! Still feeling pregnant - which is great. I won't complain..well not a lot! I have a belly already but that's probably just bloat. Oh well - I can't hide it anymore. I'm in my mat pants which I LOVE. They are so darn comfy!

I go for my first midwife appointment next week - which is SO exciting! The last time I couldn't get in right away and then when I did - we found out we miscarried. So things are falling into place this time around. I do have to go in for a dating ultrasound just to see where we are at. I think I may be less further along than they think but I don't know. All I want is to see that beating heart!

I'm still very nauseous and I have a very little appetite. Everything makes me queasy - but there are a few things that I have been craving now

What I am craving: Yogurt - specifically Peach. Bagels, grapes and still cheese. Pork and Beans is another one that I've been craving but an scared to eat! I'm drinking lots of water and cutting my juice with it too.. Chocolate milk is a staple now. The first thing I do in the morning is get a BIG glass of it.

I cannot wait for my first appointment. I will be just a day shy of 9 weeks. EEK!!

Week 9:

Not a whole lot of change from week 8. Still nauseous and tired. But the good thing is.. I STILL FEEL PREGNANT! Which is a good sign I think.

I went for my first midwife appointment and met with one of the ladies. I found her to be very polite and nice. I felt comfortable and thought that I made a great decision to go with a midwife this time around. It was a pretty regular appointment - took my info - weighed me (down 2 pounds - probably from lack of appetite) Then we discussed my history and what not. I made an appointment for April 10th - I will be a dat shy of 12 weeks then. So I am very excited to hit that mark.

I also have a ultrasound on the 3rd of April. I asked to have one just to put my mind at ease. I don't think anything is wrong but I would like to have that piece of mind knowing our little bub is doing well. I will probably post this after I see that heartbeat!

Cravings: Nothing new really. Just want milk/chocolate milk all the time.

Aversions: Nothing in particular. I think to myself "Ooh I'll make _____" and then I want to puke just from the sight of it. But usually by dinner time I'm hungry enough to eat whatever is placed in front of me.

Week 10:

Still tired - nothing really different from week nine. BUT - we did go in on the 3rd of April for an ultrasound. I was soo freaking nervous. I barely slept a wink the night before, and when I woke up I have a HUGE cold sore. YUCK! But all my worrying was for nothing - as the tech confirmed what I knew in my heart.

We have a healthy little bub in my uterus with a good strong heartbeat! Can you say RELIEF! Oh man I am just so happy and overjoyed to have seen our little on.

It's funny cause I keep saying - I think it's another boy just cause my symptoms are the same as they were with J but after our ultrasound - C and I both said to each other in the car : GIRL. So we will be finding out in a couple of months.

I go for my 12 week midwife appointment next week, and I get to hear the heart this time. SO excited.

Sorry this is SO long but I needed to write everything down. I will be doing weekly check ins and I really hope to get back on track with the blog.

Thanks for sticking by me folks!


Much love
xoxox

Wordless Wednesday

I've been MIA and I am sorry for that. But I've had a really good reason!

Yup! We are PREGNANT!

I am 11 weeks today and am SO ready for the morning sickness to be over! We went for our first ultrasound on Tuesday and we saw our little bub and a heartbeat! I was SO happy to see that.

So now you know why I've been absent. I'm sorry but I've had ZERO energy! So here's hoping that I get some energy back and I can get back to blogging!

Much love

xoxo